untitled (part 2)

raindrops fell on my window that morning
as if they were accompanying my tears
that ran down on my cheek
unexpectedly without warnings

don't be too kind to me
because i don't want to be loved by anyone
so i refuse any kindness that i received
but somewhere within my cold heart
i want to be loved dearly more than anyone else

i've said things that hurts you
and kept my heart closed away
so i turned my back to you
truthfully i don't want you to stop loving me

do i deserve to be touched by your warmth?
i want to gather all the lights of happiness in the world
and shower it onto you with all my love
i want to lift you up in the bright blue sky
and sweep away all the tears of your sorrows
i want to embrace you gently in my arms
and shelter you from all the pain that haunts you
i want to be the distant star for you rather than the moon
even though it seems small and far away but it stays forever
but do i deserve to be loved by you?